both of me
i live two lives
(one beside the other)
one life for the world
(one in my mind)
i always say I’m fine
(i’m falling apart)
i smile and joke along
(i’m crying)
i play well with others
(i just want to be alone)
i do what is expected
(i’m so tired of trying)
i check every box on the list
(i’m shaking inside)
i keep showing up as myself
(but I don’t know who that is anymore)
i put on this costume daily
(i am running out of me)
(i don’t recognize my voice
and it is fading)