I should have worn a dress
not some
big dumb ugly suit.
I only bought it
because it was
enough to cover my
body and chest.

Have you
ever tried
to eat dysphoria
one honeybun at a time. 
I felt
like no one.
I tried to fill the void
with Dough and Sugar.

Not sure if it still bugs you
That I didn’t take the time
to find a nice suit
that matched. 
Instead I found 
a dead guys suit 
the day of,
and wore it with
sneakers and,
my dads shirt. 

I asked you to take me dress shopping
we could have tried them on together. 
I wasn’t fully out to myself
only really out to you,
and I was terrified.
All I wanted 
was to be the girl
dancing with you.