Joyous childhood
Lost
As the shadow
Throws punches
Slowly getting
Larger and closer

The constant battle
All-consuming
Stealing energy
And relationships
Leaving behind
A scarred battlefield

Momentary relief
Appreciated
Yet colored by
Fear that
It is temporary
Overshadowing the happiness
Wounding the brain

Longing for
Normality
Holding oneself apart
Unable to believe
One can truly relax
Destroying the psyche