Sorry that I’m coming to you with this again, I’m…
I’m really trying not to trouble you.
Feels like I become a burden so easily now.
Doing my best to be strong,
but it just doesn’t take much
to knock me down anymore.
I worry…

Am I thinking too much?
Making something out of nothing?
Am I being too dramatic?
Should I even be disturbed?
Am I looking too deeply
into the thing that he just said?
Is there even a problem?
Is there anything to see?
Am I going insane,
losing hold of my own head?
Am I right to feel blamed,
like I’m being targeted?
Am I less of a man
’cause I can’t fix my own issues?
Should I be letting this go
in a fit of forced forgiveness?
I don’t know…

I don’t mean to make you fight my war 
but the days are not getting better.
Feels like I’ve blown out both my ears
trying to blow on all these whistles.
I really feel like there’s a problem here
that I can’t answer on my own.
Makes me wonder…

How does anyone get heard?
How does anyone get help?
In the workplace or in life,
where can the broken turn
when the support that surrounds us,
the people meant to love us,
comes apart like wet paper
when we need to fall in their arms?

What do I need to say
to convince you this is real
or am I doomed to daily spiral
in an invisible abuse?
What magical string of words
will make my plight appear?
How loud do I have to get
to finally turn some heads?
Should I even be worried?
Is this problem even real?

So I guess what I’m really trying to say is
a person will eventually
start running out of options.
I don’t have much faith in anything anymore.