not sure where or if it matters
I am tired in a weary sort of way
all the while trying to be hopeful
self encouraging if that’s a thing
others wish me well and assure me I’m alright
and I am
I am solid and rooted in something more substantial than what confounds me
yet
I am trying, really trying and I just don’t understand
when will this not be the case?
that’s my question and my motivation
everything and then some and more
I look to the stars and the sun and all that’s above
hello God will you please send the proverbial rain
not simply a thunderstorm