noun
homesickness for a place you’ve never been  

my therapist says  •  there’s no good translation for this  • i am crying • down fourth street •   how many worlds • have i built • in this body • at war • with each other •  how many gods • how many mothers • intranslatable yes • somewhere between •  ghost and blood • somewhere between • this ocean and next • today i google judas • today i order chai tea • today i learn • betrayal is every language • war  •  is every language • no good translation • i am wrapping a towel • around myself • wet with longing • no good translation • desire • like a tourniquet • i am leaning down • to serve you • body intranslatable • as i bend • body incapable • language • have you ever put a ghost • in your mouth • have you ever opened • oceans • inside you • have you ever • watched your mother sleep • and seen your own wound • looking back