For a second
You were lying next to me

For a second 
I didn’t mind
But then
I had to roll over, between sleeping and trying to close my eyes
And turn my back to you
One more god-damn time

and I beat my chest where the pangs began
Where your memory lived 
Once again
Only for a second
Or two

As dark as it was in my room
The shadows were darker
And even they couldn’t stand 
To watch me, watch this…
For even one more second

I miss, hate, and love you
All at the same time
For a second
I forgive you
For a second
I forgive myself
My, how time passes