the first time you didn’t drive me back to mine
you pulled me through the doorway to kiss me one last time
a month later i stayed over because you wanted me again
in the morning you left before me like a one night stand

i walked out for the first time on my own
past all of your sleeping friends
sometimes i’m stupid enough to think if i’d made your bed it would’ve made a difference
and trust me i know why i just smothered you all the time

you say you don’t know why you keep trying
while i’m on the phone crying
you’re the one who handed me the cup and took it away when i drank too much

i wonder if you’ll ditch her on her birthday
maybe now you can say all the things you could never say
when you called me your soulmate i knew you’d never die on that hill
i’ve never said anything bad about you and i never will