I have so much to say to you

But I hold back,

Because I know in this moment

You won’t fully understand

You’ll hear me but you won’t feel it


I’ll write it down and save it for the day that I know you love me as much as I love you,

And if that day is never to come,

I’ll throw it away, or burn it,

Or keep it in a drawer,

Where I’ll find it mistakenly, years from now

And be grateful for my younger self

For being able to have so much love and warmth in my heart,


And I’ll love her more than I loved you