Like shrapnel in skin

I can’t dig you out

You still have a grip on me

No matter how fucking hard I try

My body still knows

I can deny you all I want

But you’re still with me

Memories of you are stored in every joint

I still feel your fingertips

I can smell your hair

I see in in my mind like you’re here

I’ve watched these memories back so many times that the tape is worn

It gets stuck in a loop sometimes

Just like me

No matter how badly I want to I can’t escape you

You seep through the seal

I don’t want you here anymore

I don’t want you anymore

But at this point who would I be if not yours?

-my mind sleeps, but my body still feels the pain