they always say 
that the best thing to do is talk
but how can one 
explain that colors become sharp
sounds become shapes 
the pointed edges twisting 
through the ear canal
that the very skin
that you’ve lived in
your entire life
becomes an enemy

how all the numbers
start stacking up
against you
and all those things
that meant nothing
slip through 

when it is too tiresome
to even talk
just release