Working in secret at Los Alamos
I, too, was a plutonium

scientist. Brilliant
& cocky, the men’s schemes

were considered first
& desire to end the war

was overwhelming. Like a campfire
in the wilderness my conscience

flickered. With others I
recommended a live spectacle

of the bomb, leaders
of nations would watch

& surely lay down
weapons after witnessing

such power, destruction,
military dominance. No one

seriously considered it.
Lily said, We all carry

some guilt but big boys
like big toys.