I feel like I am in a love/hate relationship with my body
I am a grieving mom, having lost my son a year ago
and I found 22 pounds, which makes me feel icky!
None of my clothes fit and I am getting ready to start
a new job-which is a very good thing for me!
Part of grieving that I have discovered about myself,
I will focus on the negative more often,
which is a big change from my optimist personality.
This may be my new norm, but I hope not.
Dark thoughts have been visiting since my son left,
thoughts that I would rather be in heaven than on earth.
However, God has been close by my side and showed me
that I needed help for this and stayed by my side while I got it!
So, I have been trying new things with my diet and exercise,
and my poetry has been such an amazing way to express my 
grieving journey and all the life hiccups that pop up along the way.
I am still overweight though,and am trying to love my body again.
Even with the extra weight.  I have been doing yoga, walking, 
and moving again and I am buying bigger clothes since I am changing
jobs and can’t wear weight hiding scrubs as often.
So, loving yourself is a journey, but you need to find acceptance for
where you are at every level.  I am loving my poetry writing, healthy 
eating, and exercising self more than the bulky overweight self,
but I am indeed working on it.  I am also loving that I am a child of
God and he is with me in EVERYTHING, and is cheering me on with
my new healthy focus and starting my new job.