My words in your mouth feel like the best betrayal
She says
“I love you
I don’t plan on giving you up
I am yours as long as you’ll have me”
As if my heart was not already anchored to her seasons.
As if I hadn’t said those words to another.
I watched my words fall to earth, years ago.
Caught and examined and set aside
unwanted
Watched myself
Shatter
into a very long winter
Two cardinals kiss at my feeder,
beaks
exchanging a seed so delicately that my bones ache.
and one morning I wake up
and find my words
in her mouth
I am a humble lizard basking
and she is the sun,
a tree opens new leaves
like hands spread in prayer toward the sun
She sends
Kisses
Blown across the world
Admiration
On the backs of songbirds
Promises
Between the wave-forms of domesticated lightning
A spring storm
raining love
Each drop feels unreal
Unbelievable.
Frost crept deeper than I realized
Yet I am thawing
She says “I love you”
And I hold each letter to my lips
fold them safely into my heart
They were mine –
are mine –
ours
I know they are precious
This time,
they are warm
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a lot of beautiful imagery, especially in the first half of the poem
Beautiful and poignant! So many good images and phrases! I especially like “watched myself shatter into a very long winter”, “as if my heart was not already anchored to her seasons” and the kissing cardinals.
honey! <3