it’s hard
not to think about what could’ve been

if we hadn’t wasted time
lying to each other

you remind me over
and over
and over

i’ll never make it in this world

after all
i wasn’t supposed to be here

flashes of sharp objects
pressed against my wrists and thighs

you tell me to just cut away
all the parts of me i hate

though if i succeeded
there’d be nothing left at all

you say that’s not a cry for help
just for attention

we can’t seem to agree on anything
but one thing i’ll never understand

if we are two halves
meant to fit together perfectly

shouldn’t it be physically impossible
for you turn your back on me

after all
i am you

and you’ll be me
if you don’t kill me first

if you could stop wishing me away
trying to rid the world of me

maybe one day
i won’t have to wonder

if we might’ve had the strongest alliance
in the battle of life