I have discovered that my grieving has brought questions

Why my beloved son?
Why so young?
What now?
How do I go on?
What is my purpose now?
Will I ever not feel lost?

However, I have gained some answers:
I am not alone
God is here every minute
Those questions may never be answered on earth
I CAN rest in him and still have questions

So the questions still pop up and I ponder them
and then continue to rest in him