In shame, I seek forgiveness, 
never to stop looking for it. Mother, 
dysfunction lulls the furnace—
Father, dysfunction, dampens

the furnace. Frozen, the lakes once 
beautiful, now not a hint of flowing water.
Father says
I am his failure,

and my failure,
to not have stood up 
as he taught me.

I cannot breathe. My lips drawn,
a dry ink pen writing 
deadsy shattered sonnets.