Find myself finding solace among the shadows tonight

As they dance amidst various flashes of lights

Dancing on the walls on outsides and insides of houseS
Dancing with the happy souls of spouses

Every shadow, every light, every turn, every sight
Heaviest, incessant reminders

Of what I don’t get to relish in again

Recalling the first time we danced
With no music, only the rhythm of our hearts; entranced
Racing at the excitement of what could and would be

Only a sentiment now, far from reality

Oh. What I’d give for my shadow to simply be next to yours

Pretend for another moment, of a life we remain aboard

Even the most still and droopy shadows I envy 
Because they appeared intertwined and not lonely

Sitting now, in not what I’d call silence,
Ruminating on what we built, that I called an alliance

Replaying and retracing every step I learned you 
Recalling how you and me became a furious “we”

As I play this story out, I become further confused Consumed with the pieces that fueled each step of doubt

Now I shake my head furiously, as if my  minds is an etch-a-Sketch 
Knowing I’ll still lurk curiously, draw to the story that never was