I always felt so close to her

when she would lay beside me

asleep at night.

And I would want to text you

the next day

and tell you

“I love her so much”

as if it were a secret

or a sickness,

because I thought

you were the only person

who knew what it meant

to love someone else

that deeply.

And I hoped

you could tell me

what to do

with this

deep, deep