Days like these, I’m restless

overthinking every detail
sinking on the inside with weight of past decisions,
career paths, life trajectories

sending me spiraling

wondering how it all could be different
how I could be someone else entirely.

I cling to things I’m sure I got right
like my kids, my partner, a dog as neurotic as me,
being a steward of this land,

and all the amazing humans I am privileged to know
who do work to make life better for everyone

keep my head above water with hope
tomorrow won’t be one of these days,

but instead a day when I feel light
like I could float above the hills with happiness
for all the small good things in this world

So, I kick my feet, grin, and
push my way through these murky waters.