Is it summer
or is it me?

Yesterday
I was evaluating myself
using numbers
I never do that
but a number came to me

I spoke across the table
and said to my husband:
“I think I’m about
75% today”

He silently nodded
to what I was saying
and sipped his beer.

But it was only 5:30
it was still so early

Any other day
I would have just said straight out
that I felt really tired
and even too tired
to have gone out
to this darkly lite Neighborhood Restaurant,
where the danger of falling asleep in the booth
was pretty high,
And I would have kept going on
listing my thoughts on
why I was so tired,
what I had done and not done that day
wondering out loud whether I should have
just stayed home

But last evening
I did not say all that
and I think my husband appreciated
the economy of numbers