Stepping back into

Going to the bank 
grocery shopping
play dates 

how can I
continue existing
when you don’t have the luxury

they say grief never goes away 
it’s a theif 
stealing moments of happiness 
memories of the way you laugh 
and the funny clothes you wore 

tainted by the fact that
ill never hear you
or see you in those too big high heeled shoes again 

And no matter how hard I try 
every funny memory 
Becomes another reason 
to cry

I grieve not only the loss of you 
but the loss of me too