today I can’t do what I want

everyday is a new day to fail

and feel and my trembles turn to

tremors when unshed tears are finally shed


tears I didn’t know I had

tears that are familiar

tears i’ve never seen before

and tears I welcome back


i’ve never felt more at peace

than when I’m screaming out

about my pain to someone

who finally understands


someone who finally believes me

someone who knows just what it is,

the hell that I’ve been through.

the hell that she’s been through,

our hell, the same but different.


these tears help keep me

right in the present

where my pain is most intense,

right where the healing is.