the sun sets
neon signs flicker as seductive strange kisses exchange
sweat drips
my head is pounding 
the voice in me screaming, pleading
don’t take one more sip

my tv seems to glare at me
i stumble as i slur the words to whatever
taylor swift song is blaring
my neighbors fall deep into their dreams
as my night has only begun

crashing into my dirty clothes pile
i see stars instead of a ceiling
they all slowly come together as one
oh wow, i gasp
a face

it’s you
and it’s beautiful
my smile fades as drool spills
tequila, too

it’s you
in the only way i’ll see your face
ever again
but i’ll take what i can get
because if not in my dreams, nightmares, tear stained
paper and dried out pen
then when?