The Way We All Visit Our Losses *
What is it in us that wants to take
in the ruined house of the past,
the exquisite pain of this world,
what I can only call a terrible power, the burden,
the accumulations of our years and griefs,
the neat, fenced acres of our separateness,
the temptation to step off the edge
breaking and falling and changing shape,
a darkness we have no word for,
those undefined days we stare into the blue scar,
a blister we scratch in our sleep,
something inside us that longs to be named,
molten and glowing as a blade hammered to silver,
heat that draws us to our life’s work.
There are twenty-two levels of heaven.
Gaze deeply into the excitement,
the world tilting on its axis right beneath your feet.
Inside the body, the doors of pleasure,
secret as the underside of leaves, the flipside of flower petals
opening, one after another, an arpeggio
humming notes to a score
where each of us is imprinted with a map,
gateways that lead us there: the torn edge
between this realm and the next
that forever marks before and after in the heart’s guest book
stretched out before us, limitless and absolute,
set down like blank pages on the yellow quilt.
* Cento using lines, including the title, found in the poetry collections Only As the Day is Long by Dorianne Laux & Bonfire Opera by Danusha Laméris
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I am in awe, Karen. I really don’t know how you do this – absolutely lovely!
Thank you, Nancy!
Your ability and skill is on fire, here. This whole poem feels like a meditation on growing outside of the “neat, fenced acres of our separateness,” and it’s something I needed to hear.
Thank you! Obviously, I needed to hear it too, or those particular lines I arranged that way wouldn’t have drawn me in. That’s what I love about centos and other types of found poems.
Loved …a darkness we have no word for and the heart’s guest book! Very creative!
Thank you.
Oh goodness! The title is exquisite! The first stanza does so much work examining and shaping our pasts and the transition into the waking life! The heaven and hell. Beautiful!
Thank you, Sylvia.
O Karen, this is lovely! I’ve enjoyed reading your work this year, as every year.
Thank you, Melva.
Great progression & such poignancy & hopefulness–powerful!
Thank you.
Just the words I needed to see at this juncture in my life. Thanks for writing this, Karen!
You’re welcome.