Start with what you remember 
No, not there 
Start before there 
The things you know 
To be true 
That shaped you 
That maybe even caused 
You not to 
Remember 
 
Start there & deep dive 
Into an unexplored ocean 
With species of diagnoses 
Before unnamed 
Not even considered 
 
Watch the pressure in 
The submarine 
You wouldn’t want to 
Get stuck down here 
To drown with 
Lungs full of fire 
 
Turn on the headlights 
But don’t forget what 
The sun feels like
Beached 
You’ll return there
One day 
 
But you will remember every rock 
That sliced your foot open 
On that uneven beach 
Bleeding, saying 
Am I healed now?