click headset on. 
good morning. 

good morning,
how are you doing today?

I hesitate.

today seems like the one day I’m allowed to be honest. 

but people only ask to be polite. 
they just want their cup of coffee.

I’m doing alright today. 
what can I get for you?

every time I say it
I feel like I’m betraying a part of myself
again and again
and again.