I had some alone time yesterday
the most I’ve had all year.
Peace and quiet.
I could hear myself think.
I baked
took my time with the yardwork
went to the store with no list and no kids.
I felt free.
Deeper than it all though
even in my recognition
of the positive effects of rest and relaxation
I felt a longing, a loneliness.
Children are young for such a short time.
The hour on overstimulating hour
we spend together now
is irreplaceable.
I know I will mourn once they
leave each morning for school.
So I count the hours until they return
and try to enjoy the rest I have left
before the pieces of my self
that grew legs and hearts and beautiful little brains
walk back through that door
yelling “Dad!” over and over…..