By the time

I am able to come out

of the closet

and live as myself,

it may be too late.


I didn’t get to

have a girlhood.

Now I may not

get to have a life.


Politicians are trying

to outlaw my existence.

They praise the freedom

of this country

as they plot genocide

for anyone not like them.


God bless the USA.


It has been a long journey

and I have worked hard

to become myself,

to love and accept myself.

And it’s so frustrating

that my final destination

may be nowhere.


I’m waiting for never,

a day that is not coming

or maybe one that already passed

where I can be myself safely

without fear,

with joy.


The future I hoped for

dies a little more each day.