What If
What if the air in Texas
is thick enough to choke me
What if the mountains crumble
because they’re not resting on my shoulders
What if I open my mouth and nothing comes out
just a whole bunch of gasps
What if the plane takes off
but never lands
What if I stopped making excuses
for my fear
and let myself feel it
What if I let myself sleep tonight
instead of twitching awake
because the feeling of sleep feels a whole lot like dying
What if I just let myself make mistakes
and count them as blessings
instead of sins
What if I stopped asking questions
and started searching for answers?