Posts for June 20, 2023 (page 3)

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Poem

The Dead

The dead give us knowledge
Rosy gold laced vase in a Minoan grave
Still shining sword resting with its loyal dead in Germany
Unknown skeleton curled gently into final surrender in Pompeii’s frozen rooms
Bread and grains and honeys in dark tombs in Egypt
Organs of bones in catacombs in Paris
And though we cannot read the patterns of intent of the long gone
Though we don’t always know why or when or how
We know them
And their final thread of life
How loved ones wanted to care for them even beyond
And how they wanted to keep life with them in the dark earth
And how they were afraid
And proud
And loved


Category
Poem

Sinusoidal Functions Of Love Making

“This onion tastes like an apple,” she says, slipping the ivory silk robe off her shoulders and letting it fall to the floor in a crumpled accordian of forgotten. Her shoulders, marred now only by the thin strap of a matching camisole, rise like cream.

“Give me a definition of the sea,” I implore, eyes hot with the accumulation of several days of low-grade fever, made warmer still by the low shade of lamplight.

La mer?” she asks softly, curling up next to me.

Oui,” I sigh.

·

When asked to draw the ocean, The Child reaches for the medium blue crayon. The Older Child, one more studied, may accentuate the depth of this with dark blue and light blue crayons. The Artist, who is most certainly still a child, will finish with a crest of white foam, allowing the surface the movement it most deeply desires.

·

“Is the synonym for ocean sea?” I ask.

The sin of synonym: never the same; always More or Less.

The synonym for your name is darling. More. Is dearest. More. Is dove.

·
I define us by the rising tides. By the siren of longing from which I can’t shake free when I leave your shore. By the salt etched on my tongue after we make love, always in the pattern of waves.

·

But, when asked to draw the sea, The Poet reaches for a particular taste of green. The green that salt leaves on copper. The green that blemishes brass. The green the ditches make when they’re dug from below, born up from a hot and hungry core.

The co-sin of synonym: acid washed jeans.

·

Vidalia. Valhalla. A holler.

Which is?

The tangent of synonym, the layers:

One mountain behind us. One in front. Then it comes in sheets. With a thick, hard down beat. Chunks of rain. Full cement blocks of rain. Rain I could lock my chains to when the creek runs high of it.

This rain, it whistles my every tune:

Lonely piece of wood
in my creek bed, why
are you crying? What
have you fled?

·

I’m sorry for the flood, ma colombe. But, you see, I’ve never made waves when opening my mouth before.


Category
Poem

is it naive to believe that i would survive?

the waves rock against
the hull of the boat—-
it’s simple:
to be here
with the salt
& the sun & the gull’s cries

i imagine myself as an infant,
not nurtured, but alone
in this boat

humans are capable of life without touch

sorrowfully, one must search,
kiss the folds of their own skin,
find love in their aloneness:
it’s not bad
once you give in to your wrongdoing
& accept being here


Registration photo of Lavanya S for the LexPoMo 2023 Writing Challenge.
Category
Poem

What am I doing here / what I am doing here

foreword. what am I doing here?

every

s e c o n d

of every

d

a

y

,
every

p i e c e

splintered off,

every betrayal

shaving another fine layer

into dust

the structure

of me dwindles

while piles of soot

garbage

loss

pile

up

.



“i have loss”


I grapple with

the oxymoron of

a caregiverrapist

of strings attached

to basic needs, of

certain death

and

reaching for life

and in this

all

consuming

fight,

tunnel vision is

not a choice

in the tunnel.



day in

and day

out

planets move their positions

ages finish and start

and

I am still
fighting.


they tell me I am

the last man standing—


“you won”

“you can stop fighting now”

“you don’t have to fight ever again if you don’t want to”


if [you] don’t want to


[I] lost [want] in the garbage

in the tunnel

in the fight

in the Pile of Loss

and[       all       ]I know is

[all]I can do

(so?)

forward:
 
 
 
.
.
.

* * *

poetry. what I am doing here.

I fight myself

every day

death and life

two mirrors
|     opposed     |


Category
Poem

Beach

Waves crash on the shore. 
Then, pour back into the sea, 
Leaving sand and shells. 


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Poem

Family

Family–

dynamics are tough to navigate
especially when they remind you,
“we’re family”–

when it’s convenient for them
when it works for everyone but you

so, you become a yogi,
nay, a guru,
whose flexibility around all you bend to meet everyone else’s will

Because “we’re family” morphs from a sweet sentiment
to a burdensome obligation
that you were somehow expected to shoulder
expected to acquiesce
expected to expect
expected.

And when you decline,
when you move from the painful, delicate balance of crow pose
to soften your breath in the firm, restorative tree pose–
feet firmly planted, hands over your heart, breath decompressing, slow,
they race to cut you down 
to buck and split as firewood to keep them warm
in the urgent cold that you did not create
but they demand you protect them from the elements
of their predictably unpredictable nature.

And you will your roots to dig deeper into the healing earth
while they chop with dull axes,
long-lost sharpness from years of repeated misuse
and strengthen your resolve
reminding them that you believe they’ll see and understand

Because you’re expected to
and now you expect nothing:

“We’re family.”


Category
Poem

Defense

Caught in a trianglar trap
Behind the  bedroom door 
With hands glued 
To the door knob 
Warding  off belted lashes–
Belt’s buckle rasising sharp blue bruised whelps
With red raw marked edges —

Her thighs trembled.

Grasping a mop’s handle
From the corner 
Behind her
She thrust the handle
As if it were a sharp knife deep 
Into his fat white belly.


Category
Poem

everything and then some and more

not sure where or if it matters
I am tired in a weary sort of way
all the while trying to be hopeful
self encouraging if that’s a thing
others wish me well and assure me I’m alright
and I am
I am solid and rooted in something more substantial than what confounds me
yet
I am trying, really trying and I just don’t understand
when will this not be the case?
that’s my question and my motivation
everything and then some and more
I look to the stars and the sun and all that’s above
hello God will you please send the proverbial rain
not simply a thunderstorm


Category
Poem

It Gets Better

When the words-crafted blade stops,

suddenly,

inexplicably,

before its scheduled destination,

your heart is not sundered,

no matter how encompassing the pain.

 

It is broken, to be sure,

opened,

fissured,

but still of one piece, recognizable

as a vessel that once held Love,

and now has room to hold a new seed.

 

It can, might, and may take time,

seeming-ages,

incarnations,

or the time to walk around the corner.

Remember this while wiping tears aside:

Improbable is not kin to impossible.


Category
Poem

antidote

antidote to…
          the voice of

violence

listening to Saul

Williams

slam amethyst
rocks
        his beat breaks my

brain so
           loud cracks my

skull so hard I  can almost

forget poor migrant

         children

bombs 
                   rockets

Trump  

              Talk