A Murder Reads his Poem of Apology to his Victim after 26 years of a Life Sentence
If I were cut open shame would spill out.
If a vein was opened I would bleed shame
he said.
But mostly he said, I’m sorry,
I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
I must admit, it didn’t
klick like valve sounds from the heart to me.
But a woman listening sobbed uncontrollably,
racked with despair as if possessed.
Later she told him her story.
As a child and teenager, she was molested,
molested over and over for years.
No one believed her. They believed
her brother’s outrageous fabrications,
his resolute denial.
She told the prisoner, I need to hear I’m sorry
from someone who won’t say it
and you say I’m sorry to someone
who can’t hear it. That’s what overwhelms me:
this unending spite, this bitter sorrow.
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Oh Bobby, this poem kicked me in the gut.
Well, I guess that’s what is intended. It’s a cruel world.
Not meant as a criticism. The truth of the last lines just jolted me. That’s a powerful poem in my eyes.
“This unending spite” overwhelms us all . Thanks for such an eloquent reminder of that.
Yes Larry, you never know where a poem is going to take you. I didn’t know that’s what I would end up saying but thanks for the compliment.
A very sure footed poem. It works!
Tall praise with a few words Sherry. Thank you, as ever for the encouragement.
Evocative
i like the way you put the author’s voice in the first stanza as if he’s reading this in the paper….and in the second stanza you make it “a woman”, any woman, not necessarily a victim of this murderer’s crime, and the third stanza conclusion that overwhelms us all
Hi Jim,
Thanks for the description of the movement through the poem. As I said to Larry, you go where the poem sends you. Then you rewrite it to turn it into poetry, hopefully.
I think you succeeded in turning it into an unforgettable image.