I’m left reeling after what you did to me

My mind can’t put the pieces together to make sense of it all

I jolt awake from nightmares about you with a tear stained face

You left scars in the wake of your touch that still haven’t faded

The smell of my vomit still lingers in my nostrils

I still can’t get myself to keep food down

Searing pain behind my eyes

Like they would rather explode than ever see you again

It feels like you made me sick on purpose, left me in a feverish haze

It feels like you’re still in the room with me, just watching me suffer

It feels like I’ll never be able to recover from you

-you haven’t put your hands on me in six years and I can still feel you