you pretended to love me
for one night
i pretended not to notice
i knew you didn’t
we were silent on the subject
but we knew what this was
and it was easier to accept it
if we kept our mouths shut
and just let other body parts do their thing
as we ignored the minor annoyances we discovered 
in each other
magnified by the lack
of satisfaction or release
or meaning
what did we think we would find
how would the black hole at the
center of my Milky Way
provide anything other
than crushing weight
to all that crosses her
event horizon