Independence day

what I said
you didn’t hear
deafness and lost hearing aids by aides
made my words unclear

what I said
you didn’t hear
94 years swallowed cognitive abilities

what I said
you didn’t hear
because you were far away
on the day I prayed in silence 
please fall into the final sleep
with nary pain or peep

every day I hope you knew
the I love you mama words
I shouted like a mute to the world

but today I hope you hear me
say thank you Mother for dying
on Independence day so I won’t forget
and before this COVID19 shit hit
I can’t imagine social distancing
from someone I love
who was going to die anyway
one of those days
who didn’t want to leave her family
without her family