It wasn’t safe to cry
my pain, my grief, my anger
I’ve been draiwng it all out of my chest
Ribs cracked broken by my hand
scooping ou the gray mush in my soul
ugly sobbing
it’s messy
but necessary
It hurts. It hurts so much
But I’m tired of suppressing
this feeling
because it wasn’t safe to cry
I want to heal. But I can’t do that here
I don’t know how much longer I can survive this existence