my pain, my grief, my anger

I’ve been draiwng it all out of my chest

Ribs cracked broken by my hand 
scooping ou the gray mush in my soul
ugly sobbing
it’s messy
but necessary
It hurts. It hurts so much
But I’m tired of suppressing 
this feeling

because it wasn’t safe to cry

I want to heal. But I can’t do that here
I don’t know how much longer I can survive this existence