Burrs don’t hurt if you launder them

I just took the murkyturquoisecolores towel off a screen I like to make sure doesn’t wake me up with its blue light overnight, and

putting on my properlyturquoise glasses

to see

the brown spot

clearly

I see it used to be a burr

or it still is

really

just, now it doesn’t

sneak attack

like I was taught everything natural in Texas does

bite

sting

prick

the dose is twentyfivemcg for the

third

    day

        inna

            row

now

Tomorrow we

gotooo

nineteenpointfive or somethinglikethat

jagged edges of me appear the lower we go

we have to reduce slowly

train the body to

kick

in
with its own
                                                                                                                                    power

I have towels all over the place

how did I survve before so many towels and when did I become a person who uses towels for everything

is my towel utilization normal does it make sense

is it a rural skill or a disabled household one or just the only thing that blocks bluelight and mud with equal skill

The little ball is not still prickly, its tines are bent now and soft

the terryloopsofthetowel are safe from its snag

I cant see my way to thoughts

thoughts are twelve micrograms away

beauty is twelve more

essays are one chocolate truffle every ninetyminutes away

but that one brand, not the others

I don’t know the dose for novellas yet

my brain couldn’t keep track of a storyline before the accident past twentypages
    ten after the wreck
        three to five on a great day on covd brain

upping doses gives the body fuel to start healing.

the burrs in my body smooth out

in my mind, softness comes

im unbothered, at peace

dreams are still bad

but my glymph gets scrubbed anyway overnight so the hangover of bad drems

subsides

the dose reduces

shakes come

I fear people who are kind

my POTS returns

the dense quiet of my sweet house tries

                                                                                                    to hug me

I concentrate hard through the brain fog to

                reach
                                                            its                                                                                              arms

reducing the dose signals gland to start making its own hormone with the fuel it now has.

We seesaw

back and forth

for a year im told

two weeks off

three weeks inching up and down the dose ladder

I thought id never find soft in Texas

but now with this burr maybe there is

perhaps the body can soften into strong                                

                                                                                                                                     launder jagged

check with me in a year