melancholy over me

overcast skies 
in my mind 
i can see the light 
but am perpetually 
chasing it, never 
to keep it for 
long 
 
 
weights on my limbs 
gravity traps me in 
slow motion with the morning 
sun that never quiet reaches 
my heart 
 
squinting my eyes 
driving the one lane 
bridge, looking over 
to the dam with branches 
too big to tip over the 
barrier but the water
looks as muddy as my 
thoughts and flooding 
from the rain 
 
like the intrusive dips 
my brain takes 
begging for the fate
that isn’t mine 
i am overcome with 
the drizzle that 
keeps my vision 
blurry