Nesting Doll
Every layer of me is a thin shell of linden wood. The outermost is the mother—calm,
unblinking-–a resolute smile frozen on her pale-cheeked face. Her body meticulously
hand painted with slithering vines and budding flowers, the colors are faded beneath
a translucent sour-yellow glaze, fissured by time. She is the keeper of all of my other
selves, nestled deeply within. A tight-lipped guardian of their most fragile memories.
Swift fingernails worrying at the equatorial seam around her tumescent stomach
I pry the two stubborn halves apart, widening the gap, then twist and pull
to reveal the next iteration. Pry, twist, pull-–again, again—lining them
all up side by side in a row that stretches backwards through my
lifetime, each more diminutive, her story told in fewer words.
As each begins to speak I say yes, you are me,
I remember being you but I’m searching
for the smallest one, and when she is
revealed at last, crouched alone
in the center, I suddenly
realize that, even
then, I felt
hollow.
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Love, love, love this! Love how the form mirrors the shrinking down of each smaller “self,” and there is some really great language in here. “Swift fingernails worrying at the equatorial seam around her tumescent stomach.” Love the ending, too! Great job!
Thanks so much Chelsie!
Jenny – The layered elements of this poem are wonderful – the shrinking form, the shrinking stories, the shrinking self.
Just lovely! Great visuals – slithering, worrying, crouched, tumescent! I am so happy you decided to write during this month.
Happy to be here 😊 and glad you like this one.
Damn Jenny. LOVE THIS. Clever set up. Brilliant gut punch at the end. But the language itself is so rich. It wouldn’t need to be to sell the concept but the fact that it is makes this so so so much better! Love fissured by time… her story told in fewer words… the initial concept of the “mother” and use of that word there.
High praise! Thanks luv xo