Last night I prayed for the first time in years

Earnestly prayed

I got down on my knees at the end of my bed and everything

But I didn’t pray for what I used to

I didn’t beg for forgiveness 

I didn’t thank God for his goodness 

Or even ask for him to change me

I asked him to change you

To soften your hearts

To give you both a revelation

To open your eyes 

But he didn’t listen to me

I imagine him turning his head from me

Sneering, face contorted in disgust

Crushing my pleas with his heel

Or then again… maybe you are just assholes