today.
today, I lose
(or tomorrow
or some time (always
today) 

something
someone

part of/
myself

and no amount
of wisdom
of experience
of being here
before, so many times—

no amount
of training,
or psychology,
or Truth

about how it wasn’t about me
(it isn’t about me)
about how there was nothing
that could have been done
differently, yesterday, a week ago, years ago

today, changes the fact

that the head can know
everything and the heart
never
accept a word of it.

I miss you
(I love you)

I miss you
(I love you)

I miss you)
and you

haven’t even

                           left.