They are trying to legislate gender
and make it illegal to be trans.
I have thought before
about leaving this country.
I am kicking myself
that I still don’t have a passport.
We were supposed to scout locations
but life happens and plans fall away.
I used to wonder why more Jews didn’t flee Germany
at the first rumors
of what was coming.
But now I know the answer:
they had lives.
They had commitments
and babies too young to travel.
And money to relocate
your entire life
doesn’t grow on trees.
They probably felt as stuck
as I do now,
with the family business to run
and no other source of income
and God, please, God,
don’t let it be true,
don’t let any of it reach us.
Friends are moving to other states
I watch TikToks about people
making emergency plans
to leave at a moment’s notice.
I watch others who can barely afford to
keep themselves off the street,
much less save money
to move to shelter far away.
I avoid the news.
Who wants to stare into the lights
of the train that’s going to hit them?
I don’t want to know the horrors that are coming.
I just want it to be quick
and then over.
We had lives here