i lock my bedroom door
and strip off my clothes
i occasionally sleep naked
run my hands over my body
and love myself
the first time i did it
i thought i’d be filled with discomfort
but i came to realize its liberation

i often think about the strong smell of your cologne
(or maybe it’s your deodorant)
i try to pin-point exactly what the scent is
it’s Earthy, but
in a harsh, masculine way
it’s mechanical, but
in a fresh, scientific way

i know nothing would ever work between us, but
i think about what you do in your bedroom