I was so happy to have this haircut as something you didn’t know about me

And yet here you are, taking that from me

I so badly want to be free of you

As if your blood doesn’t pump through my veins

This one thing you didn’t know about me was so important

My sister doesn’t understand why I can’t be more firm

She gets upset so easily

She’s always been the one who is good at telling you what she wants

I wonder what that’s like

It’s unsafe for me to be myself

So I abandon myself for you

You act like this is what I want

You’ve never understood that I don’t feel like I have a choice

The space hurts less than being near you

I worry my hangnails raw

Seeing you standing at my door made me put up my guard again

I slipped into it so easily

A silk night dress against smooth legs

It feels like I have to start all over

And you get to just walk away

Taking what’s mine with you