I am Trying Really Hard Not to Be Lost
but the stars are winking out
and the wind blows hard
And clouds, clouds, clouds
rise up from the hilltops
like puff-headed Godzillas
and I keep going to the store
to buy something I remember
I need and then go home to see
I’ve forgotten the soft dog food
so when I go out again to wander
in my rootless daze back and forth
toward my husband’s hospice
bed, I will fold a little note
in the top of my purse
that says “dogfood and envelopes”
which I will carry home after my visit
to realize I only have one can left
of cat food which means the store
again only this time the one
next door to the wine shop
the wine shop, the wine shop…
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Oh Roberta! At least you have not lost your words, you brave heart. I’d like to meet you at the wine shop – I’m sure we can remember what to get there. Take care and hold tight to your words.
I didn’t know what was going on, only you look sad. Now I have a I’m hint. This poem is beautiful and so honest! Big hugs and love.
Bless you, Roberta. You are going through the worst thing of all, and still managing to keep body and soul together. I think about you every day.
Oh, Roberta, how I wish I was close and could bring you what you forget. Agree with Nancy, you have not lost your words. ❤️
I’m right there with you in this poem, Roberta. You had me from the title right on into the world you are traversing.
Thinking of you.
Amazing poem……top to bottom.
We feel and know on this poem.
And from the stars dying in godzilla clouds to envelopes of cat food are the found poems of life. Actually
” Wine is
Basically
Fruit Salad”
Roberta, I’m so sorry that you and Gary are going through this. Let me know if there’s something I can do to help.
Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers.
I don’t often get lassoed by the rhythm of anything, but wow this did it. As a person with multiple chronic illnesses most of which directly impact cognition and the rest of which cause pain that then interferes with cognition, and formerly the fastest math mind in my schools, I really feel your movement/physical/soul/fatigue/mental steps here. This is perfection in its depiction of what it is describing, and in the various kineses engaged. It’s like an action film but I feel like I am embodying the narrator’s movements instead of just watching them.
Beautifully done.
Your writing perfection aside, I don’t have the benefit of a caretaker so let me thank you for being one to the person in your path. <3