What I Am Not Is A Difficult Choice
I am full fat ice cream. An add-shot of espresso.
The long way home and clove cigarettes lit
late in the humid heat along the river walk.
If you take me, you get the back roads
through the countryside. We curve past
the farmhouse peeling paint; the cows that turn
with soft, dumb stares; the sunsets that stretch
the siren of evening all the way to town
where we shoot in from the roundabout near
the freeway, all fireflies trailing meadow larks.
If you take me, we bring the car up the side streets,
park it with a rolling stop. Finish the conversation
before winding up the windows, hand cranked
and casually. Feet then hitting sidewalk,
knees kissing hydrangeas. Sprinklers blessing
grass, whispering yes now in the nighttime.
I am sappy, signed Polaroids and oversized
cable knit sweaters. Kittens found in
hay bales and extra change in the tip jar.
If you take me, you get the car in park at the
overlook where the stars come out swinging
and your arm slides up mine and over
my shoulder like the hot pink cardigan
I’ve had since high school when living
was truly easy and the songs all had refrains
that seemed like they lasted forever.
(accidentally vibin’ after Chance The Rapper’s Do You Remember, sorry not sorry!)
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Your imagery is so charming and lulling, just like a peaceful car ride on a country road. I also love your last stanza in all its bittersweet nostalgia.
“Feet then hitting sidewalk,
knees kissing hydrangeas. Sprinklers blessing
grass, whispering yes now in the nighttime.”
!!!
Love your vibin’!
I could read this one again and again. Great job!
Okay…. I don’t even know where to begin. I just drifted away.
your “accidental” vibin’ shout out made me smile (I get iiiit).
I love how the title is the only part about what you’re not. And then what follows is everything you are about in an intoxicating flow of descriptive imagery. I too believe
I have a hot pink cardigan from high school haha.
“knees kissing hydrangeas” and the water is “blessing” the grass. Ah. Love it. I could picture each moment.
Oh and the cows with their soft, but dumb, stares haha. Made me laugh out loud.