There is a conversation being had nearby
I should not be overhearing.
Four cop cars clutter my vision,
a fifth is in the back
but I was here first.
A certain man from a building over
is the last to arrive.
Morbid curiosity
pins me to my chair.
Only a few words make it into earshot–
contrasting words like:
told me eighteen
thirteen
I would never!
An investigation to be had.
A sixth cop car rolls up.
Innocent until proven guilty
doesn’t mean
you don’t get the shivers.
Nor do I need proof
here in this case
to know
what happens elsewhere.
Still I pray that there’s just…
some misunderstanding
of any kind here.
I pray for finding solutions
ahead of bad things happening.
There are too many ways for men to destroy themselves.
Key goes into the ignition
and the airbag explodes
with seven unremembered miles.
Gambler loses all he doesn’t have.
Slippery slopes of substance abuse.
Sex or porn addict who craves
more more more more more.
This is poetry for failures
because what we really need more of
is talking to each other,
finding intentional ways
of filling the Empty
before something evil gets inside.
As for this conversation
I shouldn’t be hearing
nothing sounds like it rises
above alleged
but I can’t stay for the resolution.
It leaves me haunted just hoping
that a proper conclusion
was eventually reached.
David Hockney chain smoked
while painting
undisguised images
of gay lovers
handsome man watched
himself age, unafraid
and unafraid, he was,
to render his self-portrait
in red suspenders
and sagging flesh
consider your wrinkles
born of all you have lived, loved
and all you have made
Who is that girl?
Small gathering of family
swapped childhood memories
of Aunt Catherine, Uncle Clemence
as we drank beer in their last home,
the one in town,
without them.
Cousins and one Aunt, the last
alive of thirteen,
helped us, a younger generation
now aging, struggle to list
the birth order of parent,
aunts and uncles.
We laughed, argued,
presented evidence,
until someone called home
for the book, a family history
with photos, dates,
remembrances of 12 families
and Sister Julianne.
Gray-haired, paunchy, slower,
we offered hugs, a toast
to the correct lineage
we resurrected together.
I have discovered that my grieving has brought questions
Why my beloved son?
Why so young?
What now?
How do I go on?
What is my purpose now?
Will I ever not feel lost?
However, I have gained some answers:
I am not alone
God is here every minute
Those questions may never be answered on earth
I CAN rest in him and still have questions
So the questions still pop up and I ponder them
and then continue to rest in him
I will swallow your pain
Though it sticks in my throat
Till I can’t take a breath.
I will bury your anguish
In a place you won’t see it
And leave you the light.
I will carry your burden
Along with my own load
To let you stand taller.
I will clear cluttered paths
Moving things that can harm you
So you won’t falter.
I will hold you
As long as you need me
Until you are home…
Two love-lit stars edge sky’s dome
their gazes amble, glances weaving
a love poem, forever pinned
to each heart, looming stanzas
and couplets into a new constellation—
ample as the night sky is wide—
that uplifts in shiny outline the humble
milking stool, the deftly shuttled skein.