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Poem

Happiness is Complicated

Time to dust

                        off all the happy   songs
along with the costume              pieces
I forgot I owned, bedazzled       corsets
and feather                                   boas

I have to confess

                                I don’t really know
                                what I’m doing here

but all of a sudden

                                    I’m willing
                                    to get dolled up,
                                    put on my pretty face

and see what happens.

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Poem

on seeing Franz Marc’s Red Horses for the first time

Franz Marc's Grazing Horses IVThree red horses
dance hugely
on their own wall.
Their coats quiver.
One looks up from the cobalt stream
as if startled by an indifferent visitor drifting by,
but I am in front of them,
frozen,
staring through ripples of red energy
emanating from them
with a force that quakes my thighs.
My feet have become blocks,
my arms stiffened at my sides so
my fingers can’t wipe my eyes.
At 18, I am innocent against such power.

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Poem

Birth Day

Twenty seven years ago 
I was holding you in my arms
Fourteen hours of labor 
And there was your face
White hair and blue eyes 
I could not have imagined 
How in love with you I would 
Be then and now your sharp
Wit and challenging personality 
You told me truths I needed to
Hear and kept me questioning 
What matters, what is real
And why I need to recognize 
Those aspects of myself that 
Aren’t always easy to accept, 
What is before my eyes.
Beautiful child, you make me
Look inward and grapple with
What I don’t always want to know. 
How grateful I am to have given 
Your brilliance to the world. 
If only it could see itself with
Your raw vision.

KW. 6/10/23

Registration photo of Samar Johnson for the LexPoMo 2023 Writing Challenge.
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Poem

When she reads

Her voice isn’t a cliche
“like honey”
No, her voice is much more like an aged bourbon
going down like fire
and molasses
and, that voice inches from my ear
into my chest
and it burns 
all the way down
and sweetens as it sits warm
in my belly

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Poem

What You Will Want to Take with You, (Cento of lines from Patricia Fargnoli’s collection Then, Something)

The shifting of light across the surface of any lake,   
deer carrying their vulnerable bodies with such dignity,  
monarchs weighing down each cluster of goldenrod    
there where the sky is knitted to the field,  
a huge moth, white-winged, full of grace,  
blackbirds flying through wind-driven snow   
in a kind of trance,   
fire curling toward me, wood smoke, 
the musty-ripe smells of the marsh,  
the memory of lilacs.  

Sounds that seemed to be the shape of the trees themselves,   
the forest with its wing sounds,  
a brook loosening from April,    
its gravelly soft-talk   
a piano casting its notes,  
the chords of music arriving in my ear,  
the distance ringing with bells, 
someone calling from a rooftop,  
children, voices overlapping   
saying who knows what. 
The world’s all sound, the lulling tongues.   

A wave from a doorway,  
waving from the dock as the ferry pulled out,  
the satin of water  
dahlias bending under the rain,  
to lean against the trees,  
seduction, the solace of his body  
whose name fills my mouth,  
the suitcases of the heart, 
losing ourselves in truth and beauty,  
a wild surrender.   

The oiled tarp of night
when the river darkens—wild silver to black,  
trees transformed into silhouettes,  
the weight of shadows,   
ones’ weight in my pockets. 
Memory, an unopened closet, a red ribbon:  
the love of books,  
the mythology we recite against the dark, 
my shadowy dream world, 
more than I can imagine.    

I believe in questions, 
a feeling of usefulness,   
the door to the room beyond this room   
where all that has happened can fall away,
the hanging gardens of the wind,
the body wants to be lifted.  
I believe everything’s connected,  
everything’s a paradox. 
Let us dance together down the dark sand  
of blue brokenness,  
waiting for something to arrive.  
Love is the mouth and the cry that comes out of it— 
the map of this world.          

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Poem

It’s easy to lie

An ethereal mist 

The truth luminesces like a wisp in dark woods
It glides through the groves as if it guide me 
But the wood holds me 
It’s cold mastery keeps me cemented in the night 
Questions swirl in the wind through the grove 
I squint to find the light, to guide me in truth 
When embers coarse from within and alight my tounge 
I toss them round, and they dance in my breath
And they begin to burn 
Too quickly they meet my lips 
The inquisitive wind snatches them up like a predator it’s prey
And the dark wood becomes a flame 
 
The truth no longer lights the woods 
But a fierce and corrupt fire 
To chase the honest wisp is the souls desire 
But a caliginous master puppeteirs my tounge 
The wood is home
And it’s just so easy to lie 
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Poem

O Love, I’m Nearer Old Age Now And I Can Say This: 

There are no answers. 

We all stumble along feeling with our fingers.

One can only practice life

 

moment by moment.

 

 

In response to Amy Richardson’s poem 

Between Youth and Old Age

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Poem

Testing Your Strength

The stars above St. George Island
rise over the gulf of Mexico
and whisper that we are not
so important, such little specks
in a vast universe.

The girl running the game
at the carnival
sucks on a popsicle
and gazes out into the distance.

Somewhere, in our DNA
or in the blood we hail as life,
we remember our beginnings.

There is beauty
in the imperfect pictures,
in the rough, blurry
outlines of life.

There is more than one hammer
to test your strength,
more than one way
to win a bear.

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Poem

Shadows

Find myself finding solace among the shadows tonight

As they dance amidst various flashes of lights

Dancing on the walls on outsides and insides of houseS
Dancing with the happy souls of spouses

Every shadow, every light, every turn, every sight
Heaviest, incessant reminders

Of what I don’t get to relish in again

Recalling the first time we danced
With no music, only the rhythm of our hearts; entranced
Racing at the excitement of what could and would be

Only a sentiment now, far from reality

Oh. What I’d give for my shadow to simply be next to yours

Pretend for another moment, of a life we remain aboard

Even the most still and droopy shadows I envy 
Because they appeared intertwined and not lonely

Sitting now, in not what I’d call silence,
Ruminating on what we built, that I called an alliance

Replaying and retracing every step I learned you 
Recalling how you and me became a furious “we”

As I play this story out, I become further confused Consumed with the pieces that fueled each step of doubt

Now I shake my head furiously, as if my  minds is an etch-a-Sketch 
Knowing I’ll still lurk curiously, draw to the story that never was

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Poem

I spoke to the small boy in my dream

His head came up out of the hole
in the school basement,
where I had descended,
lost, searching the whole place
for my eighth-grade classroom,
the graduation long over,
the summer begun without me,
teachers long gone.
                                     And so in the basement
the small boy led me through a friendly tunnel,
to explored depths unexpected,
discoveries waiting
when I awoke.